Suddenly, all my friends are telling me about how they're suddenly dating people (except those who weren't single before the last few weeks) ... which y'know, I love. I want my friends to be happy. Especially in ways I can't make them happy, romance and the like.
Except ... oh, you're a fool. I want to tell you but I don't want to be the one to make you unhappy. And you'll never read this so I can spout my two cents here.
He broke your heart already. Twice. He couldn't be bothered to find the time for you, then went off with any old girl. Twice. Yet you're back with him and want us to be all 'oh-em-gee, I'm so pleased for you!' ... I said what I thought last time he broke up with you. I never, ever thought I'd see that you were stupid enough or so lacking in self esteem that you'd take it again. Don't you remember how last time, he did it when you needed him the most? No one should have to make the sorts of gamble you did, literally, with your heart, and he skived off to break your real one while you still had it (I think it's obvious who I'm talking about. I can't be the only one thinking this, can I? Does it just not matter now she's had the surgery?) ... I'm almost speechless. You know, to your face. I just hope you're ready for it this time.
I know people hate when you ditch your friends because you found someone ... but I feel like to an extent, I want to be the one who ditched because of that someone they found. Does that make sense?
I'll end my rant. I've half tidied my room. It's a feat. How does it get so messy in two weeks? I only bought like, 15 books in that time! I'm curbing my spending though, 2 lots of nursery fees out within a fortnight has hit my account hard. Plus, I'm off to Florida in July (Harry Potter land!) and I'll be going to a freemason dinner-dance end of next month too. Apart from what's absolutely necessary, I cannot spend any more on books (and really, I should plough my way through what I have first, no?). I also can't spend any more on junk food, since I'm slowly becoming a tear-drop shape, rather than hourglass. Gross.
Holy crapbags, I just read it, I can't believe it! Love is blind as they say or something! :/
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean. Her choice, her heart, her risk unfortunately. Hard to just sit and watch from the sidelines though.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean, I was kinda shocked when I saw it. She obviously really really likes him to take him back after the way he's treated her. I just have a horrible feeling he'll do it again.
ReplyDeleteIt was how she said they'd come to that point. Basically, he called it off, and now it's 'all or nothing' ... smart girls would have been like 'hello,l NOTHING!' ... I have the weirdest feeling she'll end up marrying him and have him cheat on her. I don't want to think like that. I want there to be an abundance of Adonis' she can pick and choose from, so he can be a distrant memory.
ReplyDeleteIf he does do it again, of course I'll be there for her. I just don't like that we're all aware it's a huge possibility we will have to.