Well, that sucks

You'll probably read this one before the one I mentioned it in, but I promised to talk about the tarot reading.

First off - maybe I didn't shuffle enough, because all my cards were next to each other, but backwards (that's not how the cards came, promise) - if you know tarot at all, I got the 6 of swords for this morning, the 5 of swords for this afternoon and the 4 of swords for this evening.

Going with my guide here, it says the swords suit are "associated with intellect, conflict and challenges. They represent the air element and the winter season, when life was hard and people struggled."

Cheers. Oh, and if I was going to town, I'd say I'm aquarius which is an air sign in winter, so basically, I pulled three me's, right?

They're part of the minor arcana which is more to do with outside influences rather than internal, if I read the guide right.

Anyway, 6 of swords? The relevance to me was not so bad. It's about 'leaving troubled waters and going into calmer waters' - it was all water related, and I stayed home today so 'trips to water' was out - but yeah, I get it. I have today and tomorrow off work. I chillaxed with boy and my brother's girlfriend's son (give those boys cars and some space and they're happy as. I got to read, my brother's girlfriend got to sleep, haha) ... if reading while two toddlers entertain themselves nicely isn't calmer waters, I don't know how else to justify that card.

5 of swords was a bit confusing, because I can't tell what meaning is meant to go with it. Since it's the card of deception 'and the querent should be aware things aren't what they seem'. How the hell are you supposed to know if the card telling you about your afternoon is telling you that you don't know people are discussing you behind your back? It said if it's work related, there are changes in management which could affect me (like, half our managers swapping about or going to uni and me pushing the training thing?) or someone's watching me and doesn't have the nerve to approach me if it's a relationship thing. Which I guess is entirely possible. If anyone were deranged enough to find me attractive, they'd be pretty scared to mention it to me, since I do take the piss out of people if they show me the least little bit of compassion. Who wants that?

Most likely though, it's the afterthought of the author, 'victory is possible but will likely come with a price and a struggle'. As if my life goes any other way right?

It's the 4 of swords that sucks most. It's the one that predicts death most accurately, or illness. Thanks. With my past, that doesn't scare me at all (with me on the monthlies, that doesn't heighten the fear of bleeding to death once again) ... I went with other interpretations, since I feel fine and have a pulse and all. Which is that waiting, patience and rest are needed (duh, I have a 2 year old) and feeling tired physically or mentally. It's a good time to meditate, to absorb knowledge through contemplation.

I like this one best, because I was reading 'Quantum Theory cannot hurt you' and with what was mentioned about the Big Bang and our understanding of the elements of an atom (bear in mind, I'm 20 pages into the first bout of physics since my GCSE's 9 years ago, Scarlett Thomas and the Big Bang Theory notwithstanding) and I was just thinking - maybe it's the ongoing expansion of our universe that finally allowed us to understand an atom is made of electrons, protons and neutrons? Maybe we can't discover what they're made of until we've expanded more, in a few hundred years? We'll have the technology by then.

Good luck following the ideas in this blog. It's late. I need to rest and meditate to absorb my understanding through contemplation and whatnot. I'll tag tomorrow.