Sunday, 4 July 2010

Well, that sucks

You'll probably read this one before the one I mentioned it in, but I promised to talk about the tarot reading.

First off - maybe I didn't shuffle enough, because all my cards were next to each other, but backwards (that's not how the cards came, promise) - if you know tarot at all, I got the 6 of swords for this morning, the 5 of swords for this afternoon and the 4 of swords for this evening.

Going with my guide here, it says the swords suit are "associated with intellect, conflict and challenges. They represent the air element and the winter season, when life was hard and people struggled."

Cheers. Oh, and if I was going to town, I'd say I'm aquarius which is an air sign in winter, so basically, I pulled three me's, right?

They're part of the minor arcana which is more to do with outside influences rather than internal, if I read the guide right.

Anyway, 6 of swords? The relevance to me was not so bad. It's about 'leaving troubled waters and going into calmer waters' - it was all water related, and I stayed home today so 'trips to water' was out - but yeah, I get it. I have today and tomorrow off work. I chillaxed with boy and my brother's girlfriend's son (give those boys cars and some space and they're happy as. I got to read, my brother's girlfriend got to sleep, haha) ... if reading while two toddlers entertain themselves nicely isn't calmer waters, I don't know how else to justify that card.

5 of swords was a bit confusing, because I can't tell what meaning is meant to go with it. Since it's the card of deception 'and the querent should be aware things aren't what they seem'. How the hell are you supposed to know if the card telling you about your afternoon is telling you that you don't know people are discussing you behind your back? It said if it's work related, there are changes in management which could affect me (like, half our managers swapping about or going to uni and me pushing the training thing?) or someone's watching me and doesn't have the nerve to approach me if it's a relationship thing. Which I guess is entirely possible. If anyone were deranged enough to find me attractive, they'd be pretty scared to mention it to me, since I do take the piss out of people if they show me the least little bit of compassion. Who wants that?

Most likely though, it's the afterthought of the author, 'victory is possible but will likely come with a price and a struggle'. As if my life goes any other way right?

It's the 4 of swords that sucks most. It's the one that predicts death most accurately, or illness. Thanks. With my past, that doesn't scare me at all (with me on the monthlies, that doesn't heighten the fear of bleeding to death once again) ... I went with other interpretations, since I feel fine and have a pulse and all. Which is that waiting, patience and rest are needed (duh, I have a 2 year old) and feeling tired physically or mentally. It's a good time to meditate, to absorb knowledge through contemplation.

I like this one best, because I was reading 'Quantum Theory cannot hurt you' and with what was mentioned about the Big Bang and our understanding of the elements of an atom (bear in mind, I'm 20 pages into the first bout of physics since my GCSE's 9 years ago, Scarlett Thomas and the Big Bang Theory notwithstanding) and I was just thinking - maybe it's the ongoing expansion of our universe that finally allowed us to understand an atom is made of electrons, protons and neutrons? Maybe we can't discover what they're made of until we've expanded more, in a few hundred years? We'll have the technology by then.

Good luck following the ideas in this blog. It's late. I need to rest and meditate to absorb my understanding through contemplation and whatnot. I'll tag tomorrow.

Inspiration #5


I almost don't want to write this.

Just for the fact that it feels like I'm writing bullshit. I've picked Zac Efron, therefore it must be about his looks. If I say anything else, I'm clutching at straws. Even though that's not the case, picking someone like Zac will always invoke that conclusion. Pretty boys don't belong in 'inspirational actors' lists.

And yet. Yet that's inherently the point of me picking Zac. It's like he's aware of just how attractive he is, and how short-lived that attractiveness may be, and therefore he's attempting to breach the expectations of the pretty-boy concept.

I don't think he's done as well with his film choices as Jake Gyllenhaal. I mean, the High School Musical craze alone brings down the tenor of his other work choices (but I still like them. Musicals, you know) but Hairspray was more than a sugary musical, it raises serious points about the Negro movement of the 1960's and the neccesity of equality. 17 again was fluff, sure, but he played it well, he did his research about Matthew Perry's quirks (and really, due to screen time, shouldn't it have been the other way around? Especially as Matthew's supposed to be the veteran actor ... kudos to Zac) and it was in the expressions he carried around Leslie Mann that made his character convincing. He does humour well, he's got great scope for timing and delivery. I'm watching Me And Orson Welles right now, and same again with the timing and delivery. His accent isn't quite what I imagined for Richard but otherwise ... spot on. It's just a shame they've cut most of his interactions with his friends, because that's what gives you the sense of Richard's urgency to be somebody in Theatre.

Anyway. I can see myself watching his films in years to come, regardless of his looks. His acting's all in his eyes, and that's all he needs. But who knows, he may do a Dick Van Dyke and just always be singing and dancing in whatever roles he picks (please, Zac, though you'll never read this ... never be Dick Van Dyke).

He seems likeable enough out of work too, he hikes and goes climbing, and skateboards and ... he's the epitome of a character in a Lauren Henderson book I have called 'My Lurid Past', this celebrity chef who can't stay still for two seconds, is young and impressionable and has talent for miles ... I admire that energy. I need some of it, lol. But enjoy it while it lasts Zac ...

Thanks for disregarding my entire opinion and sticking with the first argument, by the way. Yes Zac is a hot piece of ass. Damn!

Kelly

I haven't done one in a while. Sorry, I just want to get the words right when I do post about my loved ones.

Kelly's really compassionate. She's insanely caring about animals - she's done a zoology degree, and has a couple of wonderful dogs at home (and correct me if I'm wrong, but a hamster too?). If you're talking about animals, or the environment, she gets really enthusiastic.

She's the first tee-total person I really knew, I know a couple of other people now, but she was the first. She only really drinks water, no fizzy, no sweet stuff. She eats well too ... basically, she does the opposite of me, and treats her body like a temple, rather than a trash can. She thinks of consequences rather than instant gratification, and more than once she's given me some perspective, a fresh look on things I get wound up on.

I don't mean to make Kelly sound like Jiminy Cricket. She may exercise caution but she's got an amazing sense of humour. And a great sense of adventure. Last time I saw her, a week ago, she told us this story about how her mum had said she'd never tried pot and always wanted to, so her dad convinced her sister to go get some for her Christmas present. Brilliant story. We were talking about tarot cards too, when we saw this tarot reader and I'd said I'd got my pack recently and she said she had some too, but hadn't really used them. Ditto Kelly (although, I was reading through the interpretations yesterday, before I picked up Me And Orson Welles, and then did the Tarot Diary thing the book recommended last night. I'll talk about that in my entry tonight or tomorrow morning, I guess) ... I like that even though she's calm, collected, and thinks ahead and I'm impulsive and don't have much scope for the future, we do have things in common.

Like, we both love musicals. Hairspray, when it was released, bonded us. Kelly already had clothes like it, I'd always wanted clothes like it ... we bonded over early 1960's fashion. She also has some amazing medieval dresses. But yeah, we both love musicals, even if that's practically unheard of in my town. She doublebooked Hairspray and Wicked back in February, so I bought the Wicked tickets off her, and she went to the previous night's showing instead. Wicked is awesome too ... I haven't got the soundtrack, but I do have Glee's version of Defying Gravity. That song is so haunting, but relatable at the same time. My brother-in-law said it was the chick version of Star Wars ('It's even got an 'I am your father' bit!') but I don't care ... and nor does Kelly.

I love that too. Even if she reads this, she'll be thankful for the positives but it won't make the slightest difference to the way she is. She's steady, not flaky, and that's in all aspects of life.

Me and Orson Welles

I finished it already (God, I miss reading books in a matter of hours. I haven't had the chance of late) - it was brilliant. That's an understatement, but there isn't a word to expostulate it properly.

Kaplow writes actors really well. Although he wrote it recently, and it's set in 1937/1938 about a cast doing 'Julius Caesar' (I had to read at High School. Our class got Caesar, the rest of the year got Romeo and Juliet) I got the feeling that he'd had an experience like the one he was writing, but juxtaposed in a time where he could distance himself. All the characters seemed individual and believable.

Richard Samuels is incredible. I could see why they cast Zac Efron in the film (something that's said about the subtlety of his eyes, and his performance in 17 again made me go ' ... actually, yes!') - he's like Holden Caulfield with a likeable personality, a conscience and a sense of compassion and humanity. God, if J.D.Salinger had written Holden like Richard, I would have loved The Catcher In The Rye. Catcher In The Rye would've had more of an impact over here, maybe, if Holden had some of Richard's outer innocence.

I've been looking up Orson Welles too. Good ol' normally-incorrect-because-the-pro-members-change-things-more-than-wikipedia IMDB ... he's been in loads, but the only thing I've watched of his was a few snippets of Citizen Kane (I've really got to watch that in full. We got the table shot at the start, but 20 minutes of the weirdest interpretation of The Tempest ever at uni. Have I mentioned before how pointless my uni was?). Kaplow must have watched a few of his things though (out of the 120 performances listed on wikipedia) and he's right in that Welles does a LOT of Shakespeare. He's got his history down pat, the loss of both parents, the creation of the Mercury Theatre in 1938. Even one of Welles favourite actors, Joseph Cotten, is included in the production Kaplow refers to (though it was the original, and best War Of The Worlds, not Caesar performed in Mercury) ... actually, I take it back, there is something on IMDB (I'm reading as I post) about his production of Caesar, how it was adapted, how this person and that person was included, mentioned in Kaplows book too, and the role Welles played.

I love a book that's so well researched, and makes me look things up too. I'm sure if I researched songs in 1937/1938, and ad campaigns, books and magazines, I'd find all that Kaplow included too. I cannot wait until the boy's in bed tonight to crack my DVD out. I can't watch a DVD without reading the book first.

I'm getting into Quantum Theory Cannot Hurt You. I need more challenge, Kaplow's completely sparked my craving for knowledge. My chick-lit can take a shelf for now.

Friday, 2 July 2010

Ash

I'm back on books.

I've had Ash in my room for a while, one of the hundreds I've bought in bulk then not fancied three days later. But since I'm trying to save as much as is humanly possible right now (nice surprise, nursery is £200 less than I was expecting this month. I think I added a week?) I thought I'd better read through all those books.

Ash is a fairy tale. It gets a little bit Cinderella-ish, but only if the Fairy Godmother were actually a male fairy Cinderella's mother had cursed to love Cinderella. It plays more on those fairy stories you get in books like Lord of the Rings (you know, think the kingdom of the Elves) rather than 4-inch high flying sprites.

It's so well-written, even if I seem disparaging with the Cinderella reference. I suppose I'm likening it so others might find it interesting? The detail of the descriptions is incredible, but it flows well with the book. I want to walk through the enchanted forest Aisling does. I want to wear the outfits, and eat the food.

I love the names in it too. The writer, Malinda Lo, makes me think she might be Japanese but there's something Irish to the names, like the fairy Sidhean (Shidane) or the huntress Kaisa.

The huntress bit had my brain thumping though. It was so ... weird.

Okay, so Aisling (or Ash) loses her parents at the start of the book. Her mother dies, her dad remarries, then her father dies. She's left with her stepmother, who lies about her father's debts and makes her work as the housekeeper. She sneaks off regularly to see Sidhean in the forest, and sometimes just to be in the forest. After a while, she starts bumping into the huntress, and they start to be friends, while the fairy starts to get posessive. Ash strikes a couple of deals with Sidhean, to spend time with Kaisa (like going on a hunt with Kaisa, and going to this ball and accidentally dancing with the eligible Prince and then running away, like some well known afformentioned fairy story), and somehow Kaisa and Ash fall in love, and Ash frees Sidhean from her mothers spell so she can be with Kaisa.

So ... is lesbianism okay in fairy stories?

I still liked the book, don't get me wrong, it just seemed to imply that if you were female and hunted deer you had to be a lesbian. I just don't see how there's really a connection? Yet I wanna read more of Malinda Lo's stuff. She's ... vivid.

I need to find another book to read. I'm thinking Me and Orson Welles? Then I can finally watch my copy of the DVD, haha!

Thursday, 1 July 2010

Pointlessness of existence

So ... I finished re-reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I didn't cry this time (go me!) maybe because boy was pushing his books in my face? I got it, hun ... you want attention. I needed ten minutes to myself, after a fairly pants day (my brother ate my lunch, boy had a smelly nappy when I dropped him at nursery today which I had to clean before we left, we failed an audit over something none of us could prevent, it was out maintenence guys' stuff, it was hot, I'm knackered because I can't sleep from the heat either) ...

I'm watching mock the week now. And then I'm off to bed. Sorry.

Tuesday, 29 June 2010

Harry Freaking Potter

I go on about it enough.

Why not actually share my views on the book - not just J.K.Rowling's writing style, the actual book - for an entry? Or 7 (since it's the most magical number, wink wink) ...

The trailers have come out recently. It's like my youtube porn. Have you seen what Deathly Hallows looks like? Can I join the post production team? I've used a few video editing packages, can I show you this frame morph I did when I was 17 that is still ah-may-zinggggg, Warner Brothers inc? No? Geez ... just because I didn't do computer effects in second year :(

Anyway, the books. I read and re-read to see what I can pick out from J.K.Rowling's style. She says 'said' too much (if you see my writing, and I put 'said', I gave up looking for an alternative) but otherwise ... she includes so much, you have to reread to put a new spin on the text. Like 'did Harry really stow his invisibility cloak away, I thought it was in his hands?', nope, she added it.

It's not without faults. I still have the Chamber of Secrets edition where Fred talks, then Fred answers. There are a bunch of questions she's left open, even with what she's created - do we ever discover who Dean's parents are? Why doesn't Harry shout at Tonks when she leaves Teddy with her mum to go fight the Death Eaters/wind up dead? The whole Elder wand bit baffles me a little still. I know the pattern of who had it from Grindlewald, but ... Harry disarmed Draco when Draco was using his wand, so does that really count? Does he really possess the Elder wand or was that a double-bluff?

Yeah ... I think I think too much.

But it's like, one of the ultimate fantasy books. She doesn't stick to the religious aspect like C.S.Lewis, she doesn't do any more description or narrative than neccesary (she's good at pacing) unlike J.R.R.Tolkein (a page on a path, 3 on a tree) and the comedy is reserved for comedic characters, unlike the plotline (Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy) ... so it's a good pace, and well thought out and there are characters to empathise with and characters you can easily dislike, characters who make you laugh and characters who annoy the hell out of you ... if you've really read a Harry Potter, you'll make an emotional connection on some level.

I had 5 favourite characters throughout the series (I seem to do things in 5's, don't I?) - Lupin, Tonks, Dobby, Luna and Fred Weasley. Yeah, Deathly Hallows sucked for me, big time. I liked Lupin because he's like the cool uncle with the hippie beard and guitar who was so lax you could get away with murder around him, but you still knew where the line was ... and he'd have awesome stories and give you sweets and stuff for made up excuses (oh dear, was that a Dementor? Eat this boulder of chocolate!) but if you were in danger he'd turn into a clucky mother hen.

I liked Tonks because - well, what woman doesn't want to change her appearance at will? Nose looks big when you wear red? Change your nose. Bored of brown hair? Squeeze your eyes shut and in a few seconds, pink! Purple! Blonde! Your choice ... that was the moment I wanted magic the most ...

Everyone loved Dobby. When I read the books to boy, I end up with this squeaky, kid-like voice accidentally, just from the way his lines are written. I liked him because while he was child-like in his tastes, I admired his independence, his lack of care for the way other people thought about him. Everyone wants to be like Dobby, really.

Same with Luna, I liked her off-beat nature. I was the Luna Lovegood at school ... I just didn't have a nickname to rival Loony. I've got an affinity with Luna, lol.

And Fred was just awesome from the get-go. He's funnier than George, more confident than George (he's the dominant twin to George, and I'd bet the youngest and tallest too ... I know a lot of twins ...) ... I wanna marry a Fred one day. Not the actual Fred, since he's a dead fictional character, but someone that funny, and courageous, yet caring. I can give or take the gingerness.

Speaking of the Weasleys ... they remind me of my family sometimes. There's 7 of us too. I'm the Ron of the family (the second youngest, not the lanky ginger kid with the famous best friend I'm insanely jealous of) and my little sister acts like Ginny, she's confident and popular (but again, not ginger). We have a Percy-like brother, and my sister's funny like Fred and George ... sometimes, I feel Ron's pain.

I wanna say more on Harry Potter, but I'm drawing a little blank right now. It's late. I'm hot. It's hot (it's insanely hot). More later, yuss?